Seasons are changing, and so are we.
As we enter the dark half of the year, your practice might change, but do you change with it?
Recently i lost a loved one, my grandmother. A brilliant woman, who wasn't afraid to talk about death or what was on her mind. I miss her every damn day. I'm not going to lie, its been tough. Processing death is difficult, even with clear spirituality, but me being the emotional being that I am, tend to wonder through my thoughts. This is where I have to work on myself the most. This can be my dark spot.
I've had a battle or two with my mental health, along with anxiety and panic attacks. Since openly practicing my craft, I do find it easier, it has helped me by doing something as simple as smelling the right combination of essential oils and herbs or chanting positive affirmations can help me come back down to earth gently. I do get prescribed medication from a Dr. - and there's no shame in that - but naturally, when I heard the news of my grandmother, a woman who has always encouraged my dreams, I found it difficult to hold in my sacred space. I was scared this would be too much and take me down that dark road of depression.
After having some time to process and letting my initial emotions sink in, I realised that the darkness wasn't the issue, dark is not a bad thing, it's Your soul telling you how you feel. Your dark half is essential for growth.
YOU have the power to react to your feelings.
I thought about many things. I pondered about life, how nature recycles, death, and the wise old crone. i thought about how my grief is moving with the shift into shorter days. How my feelings and nature coincide and In these months we mourn the dying sun and warmth of summer.
Our spiritual path changes to seeking out more light, in the physical sense (by lighting up some candles as soon it gets a little dark outside - I'm candle obsessed) But most importantly, within oneself.
This is a beautiful time to reflect. With Samhain passing, the grieving process began by honouring our ancestors, we show our respects and give thanks for their guidance.
Now we're at the crossroads. You can ask for guidance from Hecate, or simply rest there as long as you need, like nature rests all winter. Get set for another year of working your magick, face your dark half and work on your being. You don't need fancy tools to have spirituality, you can simply start by asking your self questions;
How do I feel?
Why do I feel it?
What am I learning?
What do I want to learn?
What do I need to learn?
Answer them honestly, surrounded in candle light or in a calm atmosphere, save a space for yourself and don't be afraid of your darkness. In this dark time be aware of your mind, body, soul, and remember everything is connected. That wise old crone is doing her thing, so look out for her, learn from her, and grow.
Much love and light to you all, Z.
Author: Zahra of Silfren Circle